TC aspie ranting

aspie ranting

If I seem a little distant or incoherent, it's because I am. I am not a NeuroTypical and I have no desire to become one. This is simply the area in which I stim my creative impulses. (WARNING: All entries are either ENTIRELY TRUE or ENTIRELY FALSE and anything claiming to be one of the latter is, in fact, one of the former. There are no exceptions to this rule.)

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Monday, May 31, 2004
 
get up
*pause*
stay awake long enough
to feel your joints ache
your joints, now roaches
soggy and expired
and how tired is normal
and how much is lethargy
*pause*
*fast forward*
maybe if I walk around
people will go away
*think*
they never go away

everybody wants to help
good intentions
though
are often lost in the shuffle

search
*searching*

pretense aside   ---------->

I see it
the cycle (the wheel), the endless
regression progression recursion
and all I can seem to think about
(obsessively, it may appear at times)
are 4-, 5-, and 6-dimensional fractal patterns


"what the fuck is wrong with me?",
but I know. (are the two related?)

I know.

Friday, May 21, 2004
 
all I want this year
is not to make you cry

Monday, May 17, 2004
 
summer waxes
days grow longer
but shadows linger
enough to approximate night

I feel the ground
beneath my feet
rising to match a pedestal
72 inches above my brow


Monday, May 10, 2004
 
I feel very disconnected from this timeline's relative 0-point; I remember this all happening already. I don't know quite what is happening, but I remember things that are going to happen. I have no control over how many things I remember and when (as does anyone, really), but I can remember some upcoming events.

I'm a little afraid that I may be delusional, but I will (as ALWAYS) suspend any belief annihilation until additional experiencial data becomes available in sufficient quantity to allow proper statistical evidence supporting an improvement in any (or all) of the belief systems.

Sunday, May 09, 2004
 
losing sleep for lack of breath
apathetic atrophy of appetite
excessive rumination degenerates

and I personally believe that
knowledge is the reciprocal of power
in a strictly geometric sense
and no amount of planar postulates
obfuscate the simple and elegant
axiom schema of intelligence

Thursday, May 06, 2004
 
disambiguate
trace the edge of ripple dark
waterbug mittens

Sunday, May 02, 2004
 
strangle my periphery
gasp, stutter, fall apart
cascade rushing out
out anywhere but in
pause never to reflect
or risk becoming empty
strangled by periphery